The Great IVAN !

..

2010-03-06T21:00:00.000-08:00

The stars lean down to kiss you,
and i lie awake I miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Cos i'll doze off safe and soundly,
But i'll miss your arms around me.
i'll send a post card to you dear
'cause i wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly.
The silence isn't so bad,
Till i look at my hands and feel sad.
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
though i haven't slept in two days.
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night.

Waist deep in thought,
Because when i think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as i blink,
I'll think of you, tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter.
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And i'll forget the world that i knew,
But i swear i won't forget you.

Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past.
I'd whisper in your ear.
Oh darling i wish you were here.

I'm glad things are fine,
but for how long?

IVAN!

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2010-02-14T17:41:00.000-08:00

Dear god,
The only thing i ask of you is to hold her when im not around.
When im much too far away.
We all need the person who can be true to you
But, i left her when i found her.
And now i wish i'd stayed.
Cos im lonely and im tired
Im missing you again, Oh no.
Once again.

Well some search, never finding a way.
Before long, they waste away.
I found you. something told me to stay.
I gave in , to selfish ways.
How i miss someone to hold, when hope begins to fade.

Cos i'm lonely, I'm tired and i'm missing you again.
Oh no.
Once again.

IVAN!

I'm staying positive, but i'm giving up on things i don't really need.

2010-02-14T17:26:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna stay positive in aspects of my life, my career, my family.
But i think i've decided to give up on what i can't get, you.
It's gonna be so irritating to you to have someone like me sticking to you.
well, this is to get me off your back.

maybe i should concentrate on my trainings and getting my degree.
you'd do well. no worries.
probably, my turn to say.. you deserve better.
I'm sick of relationships and love.
Hopefully i don't start to hate.

Going back to camp.
This is gonna suck. seriously.
Robbing of my 1 extra day of rest.
Oh well...

Officially the worst book out i've ever had.
totally crap.

I hope you understand why.
I simply dont wanna be a irritant.
But i can still wait, Silently..
Takecare.

IVAN!

2010-02-06T19:33:00.000-08:00

Guess who's back?
Okay, i know not many people are reading. almost nobody.
but its just almost..

Good good good great great greatest weekend / bookout.
it was also the longest.
it was worth the wait.

Im gonna collect my rifle on tuesday ! yay!
excited. bmt is gonna be so fun. i hope.
bu when i go outfield, im gonna miss you.
):
Takecare of yourself alright?
Study hard and play hard.
Dont keep play play play only.

Im going to become stronger.
And im going to eat alot of rice and become abit fat.
Im abit too skinny.
No figure. hahahha.

One love, this is the way we found.
One love, even though they'll let you down.
One love, nobody's perfect now.
One love, dont let that hold you down.
One love, lets stick together now.
One love, we gotta stand our ground.
One love, its easy to believe in.
One love, believe in you and me.
ONE LOVEEEEEEE!

Book in time in like 6 hours or so.
TAKECARE!

NS!

2009-12-07T19:06:00.000-08:00

Hey people, im going to serve ns. that means you peopleare barely gonna see me. haha.
to all my brothers inside, please takecare of yourself. i hope all of you come out soon.
ah biao, ziyong, kiat and rui feng. i miss you guys.

i also wanna thank my classmated for being there for me whenever i needed them.
(= thewhole clique.
you know who you are. the boys and the girls both. dont worry.
you all sure can see me again. im not going to die. =x army only.

i wanna thank my brothers as well. alvin, sumi, sean, cm, qing and all.
thanks for spending lots of time with me before i leave.
i will definately come out to find you people whenever i get the chance to.
please dont get into trouble and takecare. (=

you takecare of yourself too. i know i wont get the chance to see you before i go in. i dont even know if ill ever see you again actually.
but its okay. at least i talked to you again. after whatever happened i never set high standards for myself. well, just in case. you know i cant take rejection. you takecare. ill be praying for you! :D

ONCE AGAIN !
POSTED BY,

THE GREAT IVAN!
takecare people. :D

2009-09-26T21:03:00.001-07:00

Im still sick ! )=
Someone come save me.
Im bored at home.
My boss overseas!
COME COME !

)=

2009-09-24T01:34:00.000-07:00

Don’t forget
to Remember me
I’ll be back - so remember me
Please keep me in your heart
If we have to ever part
Don’t forget me, to remember me

I don’t mean to feel like this
Don’t mean to think like this
My heart just has to be sure
That the love that I give to you
That’s the love that I get from you
I need to be safe and secure

Don’t forget
to Remember me
I’ll be back - so remember me
Please keep me in your heart
If we have to ever part
Don’t forget me, to remember me

Don’t you forget about me...

THE GREAT IVAN!

(=

2009-09-24T01:04:00.001-07:00

HEY THERE PEOPLE ! I'M BACK !
have been so busy recently.
Everything's fine now !
(:

School is gonna be the way it used to be in the past.
That fun place that makes us all keep wanting to come back!
Exams soon, Imma study so hard and shut some gaps.
Heh!

The irritant is gonna leave the class.
So happy. Faster leave. Dont anyhow drag ppl along.
A good friend wont drag his/her friend when he/she is going to hell.
So u know got what i meant?
I mean, you go to hell on your own !
LOL!

THE GREAT IVAN!

2009-08-26T06:54:00.000-07:00

Im back!
School feels so weird now.
Imagine trusting one so much and caring so much for them.
Suddenly everything's gone.
I know how it smells.
It stinks.

Will this ever be resolved?
I think no more.
Why must it be me who reconciles?

You dont have to call anymore.
I wont pick up the phone.
this is the last straw,
Dont wanna hurt anymore.

Like what Big Quah told me,
Good times dont last.
We just gotta create more good times on our own.

THE GREAT IVAN!

Trust = 0%

2009-08-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

I will never trust you people again.
Never again will i.
I swear.
Because i bloody hell did not do anything and get myself involved.
I just stop the contacting because it will be less messy,
you on the other hand think that its me who did all those nonsense u think i did
just because we are not talking?

So like that if my house kena anything i can blame you?

I dont wanna scold you.
Im not so childish.
19 already still dont know how to behave?
Stop living in your secondary school dreams la, bunch of overgrown YP's.

Now onwards i dont trust anyone.
Guess what u get from me?
I CURSE YOU!
there you go.

To,
YOU!

From,
THE GREAT IVAN!

LOL !

2009-08-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

If you think im the one, u are a ssssssstupid fool.
You know why? cos i not so free to go look at your bloody fugly blog.
I dont even have time to link that grossy blogspot on my list of links.
stop acting ugly bitch. u look like the ugliest alien on earth.
still dare comment on other's looks.
HAHAHHA. my ass is laughing at you.
not happy? then go one corner cry. i no time to entertain you.
what a betrayer.
what a backstabber.
what a disgrace.
what a loser.
what a disgust.
what a irritant.
what a ugly sight.
what a sore loser.
what a spoilt brat.
what a ugly kid.

well. thats you.
If you think its you im talking about,
YOU'R THAT DAMN RIGHT ITS YOU !
ADIOS !

THE GREAT IVAN!

Why?

2009-07-15T20:33:00.000-07:00

Back home after 3 long days of chalet.
Was kinda okay. Now im ill. So sickening.
I think im becoming crazy.

You haven't changed.
I'm disappointed.
I give up.

IVAN!

2009-07-08T10:29:00.000-07:00

i am ugly.
so how?
FUCK OFF LA!
DUN COME TALK TO ME LA!
STUPID IS IT?
NO BRAINS?
OR JUST NEVER USE?

the most stupid thing ive ever seen or heard is someone asking the other person to shut up, then ask them questions. cute right.
NARBEI CB.
CUTE YOUR FUCKING HEAD.

I KNOW LA, YOU VERY PRETTY! SORRY LA BOSS.
YOU CHIO BU. WE ALL UGLY.
OH WELL, JUST ME!

THE UGLY IVAN!

2009-07-03T23:14:00.000-07:00

Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away

Sometimes some people get me wrong
When its something Ive said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun
Thats why you turn and run
But now I truly realise
Some people dont wanna compromise
Well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
And well I dont wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
Im sorry to say lady

Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away

Well Im so tired baby
Things you say youre driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby
Dont listen to the games they play
Girl I thought youd realise
Im not like them other guys
Coz I saw them with my own eyes
You shouldve been more wise
And well
I dont wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights
Im sorry to say lady

Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away from the troubles in my life
Im walking away oh to find a better day
Im walking away.

Is this what life is all about?
If it is, then i dont want this life.
Sick of all this.

Everyone cheats. Everyone lies.

2009-06-24T23:53:00.000-07:00

I dont trust anyone. Everyone just wanna put all the blame on me.
So much for being mr nice guy?
I think i will just be that usual evil bastard that i've always been.
Care so much for someone.
The person still got the heart to call you heartless.
If you were the one, tell me how'd you feel?

I can be like this.
But dont forget, i am human.
I have feelings.
I still do feel sad.
I still get stressed up.
I still have a temper.
I still get pissed off at the things you do.
The way you talk.
The way you make it look like my fault.

When's this miserable walk of life gonna end?

IVAN!

~

2009-06-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

Hellllllllo peeps.
Went out with Sumitro, Jiayu, Yao, Reagen and Xuyuan.
Walked around central ads Xy came first.
Then cam mr Yao.
Followed by Jiayu and Reagen.
Went to eat.
Then over to hub's 77 street.
Decided to pierce my ear.
*PAK*
Cheyyyyyyy! not pain one lah.
And over to raiders where we bumped into Raymond and his friend.
We played Left4Dead together.
Quite fun uh.
Raymond damn chiongster.
Shows that he never change.
After that we walk around, talk cock.
Go buy seaweed and eat.
Wanted to go find Aaron, Justin and Colin at bishan.
But... all say tired and stuff.
So we all headed home..
Nice
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Once again,
THE GREAT IVAN!

Fuck.

2009-06-06T00:32:00.000-07:00

Everyone, Read This ! It's True !

Seriously, everyone is fucked up.
Everyone says ill be there for you.
Everyone says im here dont worry.
Everyone says forever brothers.
Everyone says scared what, we can handle one.
And more shit...
Alot more than that.

But the truth is everyone is fucked up.
You know why?
Cos now everyone choose to have holes over poles.
And therefore brotherhood is just a fake word.

Better dont involve me in any of your activities.
I am least bothered.
I dont give a damn.
And i seriously am disappointed.
From nothing,
To friends,
To what meant more than friendship,
Solid brotherhood,
And back to a nobody again.

This is what we call life.
And it sucks.

Please dont ask me go here, go there. I will reject everyone.
Not interested in anything.
Thanks for calling though.

This is not targeted at anyone.
Just that i felt that things are this way now.
And you know its true.
YEA YOU !

Thanks.

once again,
THE GREAT IVAN!
.Greater than You!

~

2009-05-21T22:45:00.001-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
Yesterday was bbq day at Kevin's house.
The place is nice ehs.
Had a couple of drinks and everything.
Bbq was good especially when we can gossib about 'OUR FAVOURITE GIRL'.
Bloody hate her know. why gotsuch irritating pests as humans one?
Helped Jia wei to take the ball out.
Helped myself lose some blood. hahahha.
It wasn't really pain but the bleeding really made me very very giddy. i could not even walk properly.
Super scary. Got into the bus and alighted at Simei and supposed to take a MRT to Tampines.
We had to rush for the last bus.
BUT.... Took the wrong bus and so sadly, we dropped off at tanah merah and cabbed from there.
Cos i cannot take it already. Damn giddy.
I disturbed the uncle like free one hahaha.

Uncle : boys ah, where you coming from?
Daryl: BBQ uncle.
Sam: smiling away.
Uncle: Where?
Daryl: Simei.
Uncle: WAH SO FAR. Why u come until here than take cab. now one more round.
Daryl: err, we take the wrong train uncle.
Uncle: alamak. must take tampines that side what.
I CANNOT TAHAN ALREADY.
THEREFORE...

Ivan: Eh uncle you want your money not?
Uncle: what you say?
Ivan: you want your money not?
Uncle: ok relax la. i just teaching you only.
Ivan: (mumbling to myself) teach your mother la.
Daryl: sorry uncle dont mind him. hes just abit tipsy.

LOL ! dont think i dont know whats going on know ! i was sober.
LOL!

a few mins later i felt like disturbing the uncle again. i also felt like vomitting. so iasked the uncle.
Ivan: Uncle, can i vomit on your head.
Uncle : .....
Colin: hahahahahaha. dont la.

Sad uncle know. hahahhaa.
so i got home and slept. cannot take it. haha.

Thanking the guys for takinng care of me and believeing that I WAS NOT DRUNK !
hahahha.

(=

ONCE AGAIN,
THE GREAT IVAN!

Sad.

2009-05-19T08:55:00.000-07:00

Where'd you go?
I miss you so.
Seems like its been forever,
Since you've been gone.
Please come back home.

And,
JUST IVAN.
Nothing so great.

):

2009-05-19T00:01:00.000-07:00

I'm Sad.
);
I'm mad.
);

Unlike before,
THE NOT SO GREAT IVAN!

2009-05-16T22:13:00.000-07:00

IM UNSTOPPABLE
IM UNSTOPPABLE
IM UNSTOPPABLE
IM UNSTOPPABLE
IM UNSTOPPABLE
IM UNSTOPPABLE

Cross my path and find yourself learning a very tough lesson.
I dont give a SHIT if you used to be close to me.
I am ruthless.
Bye :D

Once again,
THE GREAT IVAN!

HELLLLLLLO !

2009-05-11T08:58:00.000-07:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLO PEOPLE !
SUP HOMIES!
HI EVERYONE!
GREETINGS FROM AMK !

Today was good. Had PAF end of module examination.
Was kinda okay about it. Probably a B. maybe an A.
But let me tell you a story.

Once upon a time there was this boy called Ivan.
He is very handsome. But thats besides the point.
The point is he had a great enemy.
His enemy was named PAF who is the older brother of POA.
POA and Ivan were always busy fighting during Ivan's secondary school days.
When Ivan left secondary school and moved on to his diploma,
POA's older brother named PAF tried his luck to take advantage of Ivan.
But he did not realise Ivan was a Island-Wide mafia.
Ivan conquered PAF and now Ivan dont even have to look at PAF's face.
Wonder when is POA & PAF's parents gonna come find me.
Cos i hamtam their only 2 kids.
SO SAD !

Dont think i anyhow wack one story.
This is a story based on a true happening.
The moral of the story is : Anything also, WACK ONLY !

Okay stupid people, thanks for reading.
I just wasted your time.
And i know you probably are hating me and cursing me now.
BUT, It dont even hurt. Dont know why!
HAHAHAH !

ONCE AGAIN,

THE GREAT IVAN!

HELLLLLLO !

2009-05-11T05:41:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-10T08:49:00.000-07:00

U know it hurts? )=

EXAM FEVER!

2009-05-09T23:06:00.000-07:00

A very Good afternoon Everyone. :D
and.... GUESS WHAT PEOPLE ! tomorrow is the first paper ! :D
hahaha. principles of accounts and finance.
Hope all you fellas out there studied hard.
Well i tried my best.
I want an A. pretty pretty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee!
Hope all our friends, close ones and the whole clique does well.
And then concentrate on doing the next paper on friday.
Comminucation skills. muahahahah!
All faster mug mug mug!
No more playing like how we did in class okay !
we all paid money to come here study.
HAHAHHA!

Apart from school and exams.
I THINK I HAVE GOT SWINE FLU !
OH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDDDDDDD!
Hahahhaha. i have cough, flu and muscle cramps.
Everyone! stay away from me !
I am dangerous. Very dangeroussssss !

Recently things have not been very good.
Its like we have come to a point where there is no turning back.

Why is that so?
Is this what i wanted?
Is this what you wanted?
Is this what we wanted?
Is this what i asked for?
Is this what you asked for?
Is this what we asked for?
Is this what i dreamt of?
Is this what you dreamt of?
Is this what we dreamt of?

I DONT KNOW !

THE GREAT IVAN!

2009-05-09T08:52:00.001-07:00

BYE EVERYBODY ! I LOVE YOU!
=)
)=

THE GREAT IVAN!

Take a look at me.

2009-05-09T06:56:00.000-07:00

Tell me what do you see, when you looking at me.
It's easy to hate,
It's harder to love me.
Ya'll don't understand,
Ya'll quickly to judge me.
Put your foot in my Nikes,
Picture you livin' my life,
Picture you stuck in a cell,
Picture you wasting your life,
Picture you facing a charge,
Picture you beating the odds,
Picture you willing to bleed,
Picture you wearing the scar.
Thank you for making me struggle,
Thank you for making me grind.
I perfected my hustle,
Tell me the world ain't mine
You've been seein' me lately,
I'm a miracle baby.
I refuse to lose.
This what the ghetto done made me,
I put that on my father.
Tryna hope for tomorrow.
When I think that I can't,
I envision Obama,
I envision the diamonds,
I envision Ferraris.
If the world was perfect,
All my niggas behind me.
Ain't you happy I made it?
That I'm making a statement?
Take a look and you can tell,
That I'm destined for greatness.

I done been through the pain and the sorrow
The struggle is nothing but love.
I'm a soldier, a rider, a ghetto survivor.
And all the above.

Good night lovers, haters, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, goners, fighters and everyone out there.

THE GREAT IVAN !

Sentosa part II

2009-05-02T22:03:00.000-07:00

PEEPS! This is part II. a few more pics only.

Top view of sentosa. cool uh.

The picture is not nice without me. they made a mistake lah. haha.

Daryl is sad so he is going home. please call him back.

This is Flower and Daryl. They are best friends.

This is Winnie and Daryl. Winnie is scared of ghost. what a failure. hahaha

Eunyse , me and daryl. Eunyse is very free one. she always change her msn nick.

If you have eyes, you can see me coming.

Flower very happy because Daryl take photo with her.

See the happy face? daryl shy already.

This is jasmine(flower) and I.

Flower act cool. she said she always wanted to be cool like me.

She also wanted me to intro her in my blog. so people, this is

Jasmine Lee Xiu Ting. she is NOT CUTE.

Alright people! Fun times are over. Currently having study break. gotta focus already.

I hope our whole class will excel in the upcoming exams and will not have to Remodule. (:

All the best classmates and friends!

Any doubts, dont ask me. cos i dont know. ahahhahahah! takecareeeeee!

SENTOSA!

2009-05-01T19:44:00.000-07:00

After a month of studing, we had a long day out ! it was good!
this is Part 1. later got Part 2. haha. Let the pictures speak for itself!
ENJOY !

Kiat hiding behibd Hongda

This is mr nice guy Daryl.

And thats me with Mr nice guy.

And again....

Look at everyone. SO UNGLAM !

JASMINE! KEEP YOUR TEETH!

Daryl is pimpin' Wooooo!

Jia wei 2 isvery shy.

While waiting for the monorail.

This is Winnie. and she's older than me ! OMG!

Samson and I. samson very cute right?

Colin and I.

This is Eunyse with Winnie.

Celine (i think),Eunyse and Winnie.

The Fellas. Colin, Samson, Daryl, Satesh and I.

And all of us. not really all. some camera shy.

This is alex. look at his body. WOOOO
(look from head to toe)

Me and Daryl. beware, he is gay.

Satesh and I.

Satesh and Daryl. They are in love.

Stupid boy. david beckham kick ball. not sand.

Mr shy vincent.

WOOO! AH KIAT. SO FIERCE. hahha.

Thats satesh's legs.

ME LAH! WOOOOO!

GAYBOY DARYL ! WOOOOOOO!

Thats all for part 1 of pics. more to come !

They met in the morning and blah blah. dont know about what happened.

joined everyone else at around 12plus. went canoeing with Jia Wei1.

disturbed banglas. hahaha. super duper funny. after that talk, play games and have fun.

took a couple of pics and left. THE TOILES SO PACKED! inside got gold is it?!

left the place for the hawker opposite Vivo and had dinner there. Winnie says im her small brother.

She must be kidding. she looks like some 15 year old kid. after dinner we went to vivo city's roof to slack! And finally called it a day after that.

HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYED. Those who never come, SUCKS FOR YOUUUUU! hahhaa!

Once again, the one and only

GREAT IVAN!

(=

2009-04-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

HEY THEREEEEEEE! SUP HOMIES!
school was great today. not too many people in class.
PRESENTATION DAY ! whooohooo! was kinda scared. so many people staring at me !
after the intro it got kinda better. slowly but surely !
and wow, we got great marks. kinda happy with the group.
good job guys. we did our part and did well ! =D

school ended at like 1015am. hahahha. so cool right !
so we all decided to take a day off to get home and CHILLLLLLL!
Now im chilling at home but it's not really cold.
planned to go eat thai food. butttttttt , cancelled.

tomorrow PAF. Mr see. you are in for deep shit ! hahahhaa.
its time i studies more in class and play after that. then can get all A's.
alright thats all. for morning edition. IF i find the energy and time to blog again,
there will be a night post.

TAKECARE PEEPSSSSS!
IVAN IS ENJOYING LIFEEEEEEEE!

THE ONE AND ONLY,
GREAT IVAN!

(:

2009-04-25T19:38:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEEPS! let me intro you to my new friends!

1.Firstly, this is Mr See. He's my PAF lecturer. And he thinks my name is john.
What a clown. hahahahha.

2. Oh wait, this asshole is not new. he's the same assclown. Colin. forever strangling me.
my time will come also. careful ah.

3.This is Mr Great. Lets not talk about him. No words to describe his greatness! hahahahha.

4. This is Daryl tee. My potential drinking partner for the future. Beware, he has laughing disease.

5. This is andrew smiling away. and samson wearing the striped jacket. samson is so cute like a girl. hahaha!

Well, thats about it. actually the whole class is kinda friendly. wait, im excluding all the immigrants and refugees. haha. dont know why they come also. school's semi-fun.

hopefully everything turns out well in this 10 months !

and sorry, no no to sentosa. )=

THE ONE AND ONLYYYYYYY,

GREAT IVAN!

(:

2009-04-25T19:35:00.002-07:00

(: IM HAPPY!

2009-04-11T21:22:00.000-07:00

Blessed Good Friday and Easter Sunday to Everyone out there :D

School has started. quite fun. ending in like another 9 months or so. so cool.
the mr see so stupid. come class 1 and a half hours late. but he quite cute for a OLD MAN.
many weird people. made a couple of new friends. nice people. (:

gonna be real real busy. and i like it. rather than rotting at home doing nothing.
at least got something to study. =D
i miss all my old friends for sure. ill visit you ppl one of these days ! (:

MDIS IS FUN!

ill be back people. ill try not to let my blog rot and die.
hahaa. lovesssssssssssssssssssss!

oh ya,
IM VERY HAPPY! without people like you around me!
HOHOHOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

THE ONE AND ONLY GREAT IVAN!

ITS NOT OVER !

2009-03-13T10:01:00.000-07:00

its not over.
i wont give up.
i swear i wont! i will change and ill be better.
its a promise! its a tough one. but its true.
i promise this time its real.
please give me this one good chance to prove it.
thinking of all the great memories. i cannot just forget it.
even if im forced to, i wont.
i wont i wont i wont !

ill always be there, waiting.

IVAN!

its all over.

2009-03-07T06:41:00.001-08:00

its all over.
hais. speechless. im not gonna say anything more.
everyone seems so far away now.

IVAN!

Sad boy.

2009-02-12T07:20:00.000-08:00

Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there,
Tell myself that I'll be fine without ya
But I would die if I was not around ya,
And I can try to convince you
I don't need to be with you,
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
What can I do, love is like glue.
There's no way to
Tear us a part

im sick. and this time its serious. )=
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad.
i wanna be monster again. i must train hard to be a monster again.
soon soon soon.

The Great IVAN!

Im Sorry.

2009-02-01T21:12:00.000-08:00

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time awayI missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry it makes me want to die

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue, I'm sorry about all the things I said to youAnd I know I can't take it backI love how you kiss, I love all your sounds, and baby the way you make my world go round And I just wanted to say I'm sorry: This time I think I'm to blame it's harder to get through the daysYou get older and blame turns to shame

Every single day I think about how we came all this wayThe sleepless nights and the tears you cried it's never too late to make it rightOh yeah I'm sorry!
I'm sorry baby, yeah , I'm sorry

Im Sorry! ):

and againnnn,
The Great Ivan

sorry.

2009-01-31T09:14:00.001-08:00

after she told me what i am to you.
after she told me how i really seemed like to you.
all the flaws you see in me,
i have realised, its not me.
im not the one who can make you happy. im not good enough.

and again,
The Great IVAN !

happy birthday.

2009-01-31T04:01:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO :
-DADDY (31 jan)
-TAN WEI XIANG(31 jan)
-ANDY NG(2 feb)

(; hope you people enjoy your birthdays. sorry bros i cannot attend. my papa birthday.
no worries lah, everyone else is there. sure enjoy one. ((:

1 more day to come back? nevermind.
it's more like 1 more day before i go missing.
why?
because i know. i know very well i never made you smile.
i never made you happy.
you only smiled and laughed to make me feel like i was on the right track.
isn't it?
dont say no. you'd be lying in that case.
dont worry, someday you will succeed.
(:

... when will my happy days be back?

once again,
The Great IVAN !

So what do i do?

2009-01-28T07:31:00.001-08:00

Another day passes, and im still not sure what im supposed to do.
went to work today. was kinda fun hanging out with martin, kevin and aaron.
talking cock all day long. disturbing almost everyone in the work place.
and yea, finding for Jo from Adecco. haha. all because of the voice know. foolish boys.
this job is really super slack. how sad that its only for a couple of days.
came home and went to collect my Mp3 at Boy's house.
Thanks uncle & aunty for the RED packet (: haha.

So, when will this downward spiral end? Im getting dizzy and all confused );
im so tired of waiting,
wondering if you will ever come around.
my faith in you is fading.
);
Faster save me okay!
(Before im gone)

I guess only True Brothers last.

I think im trying to revive my blog. Okay, yes i am.
read & tag okay. dont be lazy peeps!
take great care.
:D

Obviously,
The Great IVAN !

(;

2009-01-26T23:59:00.000-08:00

you know something?
last time policeman wear short pants one.
so cool right.
okay, i'm super bored.
with no body. sad sad sad.
come back quick okay. you know im talking about you.
then we shall discuss !

IVAN

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2009-01-01T21:36:00.000-08:00

IM BACK ! to scold you bitch ! stop stealing my loved one lah. cannot find your own boyf is it?
knn, if im a girl for a moment or if you are a guy for a short while i swear ill bash the hell out of you. i will knock the daylight out of you and make sure u have no sunrise tomorrow. ARGH!

and and and, i hope you read this ! my blog is public. TAG BACK AT ME IF YOU DARE, with your name yea.
i hate you, go and die.

IVAN

2008-12-08T18:01:00.000-08:00

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2008-12-08T17:55:00.001-08:00

dont trust girls !
they stick with you ( for some time only)
and leave when they dont wanna be there anymore.
its in their blood.
damn them.

once broken considered sold. im not gonna be a fool again.
you used my suffering as a reason for you to escape?
wow, thanks.
i wondered who physcoed and infulenced you to make this decision.
i think i know who.
nevermind, never dream of me again.

i always cared. but i guess you dont.
oh yah, must say something...
THANKS AH!
THANKS ALOT !

no more girls in my life. dont call me hubby lah, brother, papa, or whatever shit.
fuck off girls !
every single one of you !

say im mad.
thats the way ill be.

IVAN!

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2008-12-07T09:35:00.001-08:00

im no longer in your mind. dont lie to yourself. i can see it.
your that friend is more important than me. i can do what you want. but can you do the same for me?
way too impossible.
i just wanna sleep forever.

2008-12-06T03:14:00.000-08:00

even if im hurt, ill disguise it. =)
ill always put on my smiling face mask.
dont worry.
ill act like im normal =)
until i leave.
(:

IVAN!

birthday/18

2008-11-28T07:42:00.000-08:00

its my birthday. yay ! thanks to all who wished me and my wonderful family and brothers who celebrated with me. thanks alot !
ill update the rest tmr. i go wait for audrey come back!
yayyyyy!

i still miss you !

2008-11-23T06:03:00.001-08:00

Day 2-
bee, its all in your offline messages. read from there.
i love you. i miss you. takecare!

5 more days- to turn 18/ for baby to come back to singapore !

IVAN/hubby.

i miss you !

2008-11-22T06:42:00.001-08:00

day 1-bee you have been away from singapore for less than 24 hours.haiyo. im sad. i tahan. i went to training to kill time i got injured and i have fever. im gonna sleep now. everythings wrong when you are not around. im still waiting for you ! come back soon !i love you.
TAKECAREEEEEEEEE

IVAN!

i miss you already.

2008-11-21T04:47:00.001-08:00

not even day 1.
day 0-

I met you and you gave me a super cool necklace with our faces on it. damn nice.
thanks alot bee. i really love you ! reading your blog made me tear up. ):
but nevermind i strong boy right.
be good there. listen to the useless fat woman even if no choice. as long as you safe can already !
eat more okay ! and no need get me anything. ill blog everything about the 7 miserable days. i love you.

you called. the last part, i tear up again. hais. hope this is the only thing i cry for. and that ill smile wide when you return back. hope to go out with you on the 29th. i love you.
be back soon.

waiting for you honey.
day 0.

IVAN THE SAD ! ):
but im happy you'r in my heart !

TO MY BROTHERS!

2008-11-13T03:20:00.000-08:00

thanks brothers for being there for me at the most weird time. at midnight you all still make the effort to come down to help me. thanks alot. really thanks alot ! im really touched.
all of you who followed me. uncle, martin, melvin, weixiang, justin, ah boy, yongreng, victor. and jules and tang who sent me messages. thanks alot.
now i know who really cares for me.
ill be fine soon. we will get back soon!
dont worry, im strong because of all the support you all give me.
once again, thanks alot brothers.
i hope what happened to me wont happen to you people.
sorry for all the trouble.
really thanks alot.
i love all you people.

brothers forever!
lets enjoy at the chalet.

IVAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

2008-11-08T06:50:00.001-08:00

happy birrrrrrrrrrrrrrrthday ng audrey kim.
had a great day. walked so long long long ! ate watched movies, played with presents and took MILLIONS (100) of pictures!
secrect between us okay !
=D hahahaha. only we know how much we enjoyed.

you write about it loh. ill post the million photos slowly. another time.
i want msg you now !~

once again! happy birthday bee !

ALWAYS AUDREY!~
IVANNNNN!

Holidays as good as here.

2008-11-03T06:18:00.000-08:00

finally. the most importand papers are over. left with mtl and science mcq.
finally finally finally.
met audrey in the morning, had breakfast and fetched her to school !
happy. finally ive been meeting her consistently.
and and and she's so sweet.
last sat i was working at taka. at cars international. she was super sweet. she bought me food because i did not go for lunch! come up give me some more !
super sweet ! thanks baby !

and and. continue....
she went for training and i came home. slept for awhile and studied after i woke up.
left for school and then took the exam. kinda easy. it may all be tricky. so im not gonna make any cocky remarks.

went to meet baby to eat again. and finally came home.
and now things become abit weird.
doing my push ups sit ups and squats.

takecare peeps !
oh ya. not going class chalet(511/512).
dont ask me why. i know can already.

okay TAKECARE !
LOVEEEEEE AUDREY !

by by by by , IVAN !

IVAN & AUDREY =D

2008-11-02T08:01:00.001-08:00

AUDREY AND I !

I, ivan.j promise to takecare of ng audrey kim forever !
now onwards i wont listen to any bastard or bitch telling me stupid stuff about her.
i wont believe you, so dont bother telling me. even if she's wrong, she's right. cos she is my girlfriend. so quit talking about her. i might just end up loosing my head. and you might just end up with a punch landing on your already out of shape face.

MUST DO !
amake her happy.
adont scold her or loose my cool especially when im with her.
acelebrate her birthday in a nice nice nice nice nice way. make sure she never forgets it.
atell het how much i love her, and that i never let her go ( make sure she believes )
agive her my all. no, ALL !
aonly do things to make her proud and happy.

so sorry to the rest.i only want to be a good bf to my wonderful girlf.
and of course a good brother to my brothers.
✖NO sisters
and nobody harm my girlf or ill kill your family and make sure i burn and destroy your family tree!

i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!
i love audrey!

NOBODY ELSE.

✖ Cos i had enough troubles with FU*CKED UP EX-GIRLFRIENDS who made my life a damn bloody hell. hope all of them burn and die. SCREW them. =D

AND she's my best-est girlfriend, my greatest love !

LOVE YAH, AUDREY.

i meant.. NG AUDREY KIM.
im not leaving !

whoever who is unhappy about this post.
please feel free to come find me !

ALL THESE BY, IVAN IVAN IVAN IVAN !

LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
AUDREYYYYYYYYYYYY!

hais !

2008-10-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

im seriously so damn down. i dont know why u hav to do these kind of things. this jealous mindset is the one you have instilled in me. i did not use to be like this.

and in this very sad and lonely moment, i have got nobody to talk to. i dont know why. i have totally nobody to talk to. i dare to say NOBODY AT ALL !
everyone thinks im real happy and whatever.
well, im not.

and if i die, YOU better dont cry hor !
cos there's no point in crying over spilt milk.
so thanks alot for EVERYTHING !

from the guy who 'never' cared !

IVAN, my last.

2008-10-22T19:26:00.000-07:00

you know what a confused boy looks like?
a confused boy looks like ME !
have been very busy in the recent days. okay, weeks.
my holidays are coming closer. my exams are coming to its end soon !
yay !
im trying my best.
at the same time enjoying my time with my new company, at the tution place.
along with the usual brothers.

hope everyone does well for o's and get off to a flying start at poly !
ALL THE BEST PEOPLE !

i'll be back !
=]

AND I LOVE AUDREY !

IVAN!

IVAN!

2008-10-04T22:54:00.001-07:00

SUPER NICE NOSE ON OUR 1ST MONTH ANNI !

I STILL WAITING FOR YOU TO SHOW ME THIS FACE AGAIN!

bee, you super cute. i hope we slowly overcome those stupid problems. step by step.
we will stay together, overcome all obstacles okay ! i will hold on ! and i am not letting you go.

this post dont means i will give chance, i will still post those funny photos of you. hahahaha.
you super cute. and also dont mean you dont have to show me the face again.
i want to see the face which you are giving in that blue dress again !
very cute !
ily baby !
i really do....

IVAN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!

2008-10-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN PEH JIA HAO!

MELVIN! happy birthday man ! i hope you do well in life. you have been a great brother.

steady at ALL times. other than the BO JIO at times. hahaha. i hope we all can work hard and make it big someday. and stay close till old age. enjoy your day brother!

this post is dedicated to you !

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you..

happy birthday to melvinnnnnnnnnnnnnn...

happy birthday to youuuu!

p.s : i can only find this photo of you. dunno who play with my phone and take a pic of you. this was a long time back. who ask you delete friendster. now you must suffer looking at this pic when/if you read this post.

takecare bro !

IVAN!

changes..

2008-09-29T09:01:00.000-07:00

and when you see changes all around, you must adapt.
everyone is bound to change. you me and anyone. sometimes we see the changes.
sometimes others happen to spot the differences without much difficulty.
whatever it i, adaptivity is important.
so that we all still carry on with our normal lives.
but...
NO !
everyone loves to use the beautiful 3 words thesedays.
not 'i love you'. but 'you have changed'.
well, we all know its sickening. and you might be the one gettting childed at to realise that the sentence sucks big time.

what i wanted was for us to be happy.
what you felt like you threw it all out.
what i read, it allowed the teardrops to automatically drip down my not so rosy cheeks.
what i feel like is indescribable. the feeling is sick.
and im wondering how we managed to come to a situation as such.
it really sucks. its been going on for 2 weeks or so?
silently and finally errupted.
and now its gonna take times to mend things back.
i know you feel sad.
But at the end of the day,
i feel hurt.
touchd deep down in the wrong way.
instead of shedding tears of joy and happiness, im actually shedding tears of pain and agony.
ill take it.
i know its been a long time since i said it.
but i will say it.
i love you girl. i always will.
i'll carry on to move everything to the way it was.
all because i see my happiness in you.
take good care.

i'll always be in love with ng audrey kim.
today im saying this.
never will i take these words back.
MARK MY WORDS!

IVAN!

!

2008-09-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

if you want this to be the end, tell it straight to me.
dont accuse me.
ill just admire you from a distance.
all i wanted to do was to show you i care.
thanks.
well somehow i managed to show you the opposite.

maybe everything's reaching the end, my life.
takecare if im no longer around.
cos in my heart only i know, that i've always cared.

IVAN!

2008-09-26T19:15:00.000-07:00

HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS !
past few days, super stressed up over so many stuff. sometime i just feel like leaving everything and go. really. i cannot handle this sort of stress. i know im weak at this. i know i have to take it, somehow i dont feel like it. everything's like restarting. after so much hardwork or effort, everything will restart. even in relationships. im just too stressed up.

over the so many things that are cramped up in my mind. i guess i must faster go first. takecare! everyone ! =D

in this darkness, im all alone. its not that i have nobody. im not gonna drag anyone along.

IVAN!

IVAN!

2008-09-26T00:54:00.000-07:00

stop being kids. school sucks thesedays.
everywhere i go i see assholes. everywhere!
nevermind, im gonna be friends with all the contacts i lost recently.
and no new friends!

o levels stress.. its coming real soon!

IVAN!

FUCK LAH!

2008-09-18T04:19:00.001-07:00

ya, all my fault.
blame it all on me.
good good.
dont know why always im to be blamed.
dont mount up the stress on me.
im already walking around with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
please.
enough.

F U C K !~

2008-09-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

FUCK IT ! SERIOUSLY.
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE TREATED THIS WAY?
IM DAMN STRESSED KNOW?
YOU KNOW MY MIND IS FULL OF STUFF?
I DON'T LIKE TO SHARE.
IM NOT GONNA SHARE.
SO DONT BOTHER ASKING.
JUST DONT GIVE ME THAT ATTITUDE.
YOU KNOW I CANT STAND IT.
YOU ALL KNOW IT.
AND STILL WANT TO CONTIUNE YOUR FUCKING NONSENSE.
THANKS ALL OF YOU !
BEST !
WHEN SOMETHING HAPPENS, DON'T CRY.
CURSE THOSE WHO WILL CRY.
FUCK THEM.
COS ALL THESE PEOPLE I THOUGHT WOULD GIVE ME JOY,
HAVE JUST ADDED TO MY DAMN FUCKING SORROW.
AND YOU THINK IT'S COOL.
YA, AND THEN GO SCREW YOURSELF~
THAT WOULD BE MUCH BETTER!
FREAKING PISSED!
WHAT'S KEEPING YOU READING THIS POST?
NO SHAME?
YOU MAKE ME CURL !
SAVE IT ASSHOLES
YOU MAKE ME SICK
YOU SUCK.
ILL TELL IT TO YOUR FUCKING FACE.
PISS ON YOURSELF.
ASSHOLES LIKE YOU THEY COME THEY GO.
MAYBE SOMEDAY YOU WILL ALL GROW.
HOPE BY THEN ILL BE GONE.
AND YOU PPL WILL BE CRYING IN FUCKING GUILT
CRYING LIKE KIDS ND BABIES.
WITH NO CHANCE TO TURN THINGS BACK.
GOODBYE FUCKED UP PEOPLE.
IF YOU ARE READING, AND THINK IM MAD?
YES I AM MAD. AND FOR THOSE PEOPLE, HERE'S A GREETING FOR YOU!
FUCK YOU!

IVAN IS MAD, OBVIOUSLY.

BABY !

2008-09-11T05:05:00.001-07:00

baby i miss you !
come back soon!
message me !
i love you!
takecare!

(:

IVAN!

second day in a row.

2008-09-11T02:31:00.003-07:00

I'm blogging. Again! hmm. im super tired. morning went to school to complete some art stuff.
almost finish. only that i need some colours to be mixed properly. stress sia!
after school, went out with hon to eat at maret. and we came back to art room with me.
along with colin aaron jiarong and oliver. did some art, and ran away.

fetched baby back home. and she fetch me back to the bus stop. weird. haha.
And here i am, at home. blogging and stressing.
gonna rest.
tc peeps.

IVAN!

second day in a row.

2008-09-11T02:31:00.001-07:00

pure sweet words.

2008-09-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

Hello, (:
And no, this is not another surprise.
I just felt like typing to you. :D
Hmm, hope you didn't treat this as a junk mail,
i mean like before even reading it.
I miss you, i love you.
You're mine for always, i hope.
Don't ever leave me okay.
I can't live a day without you. :(
I really dig you.
I must be with you, till old aged.
With kids / no kids also can.
I just want to grow old with you, MARRIED.
Please, fulfil my dream!
Wo Ai Ni!
Make our love last forever, alright?
We'll work together and make it work okay?
Wo men yi qi lai bah! :B
Rabbit rabbit (Loves) Crocodile!
Muaaaaccccks! (:
Oh yeah.
Actually i was like, typing to you on msn.
But cannot send know.
"The following message could not be delivered to all recipients"
Okay, i'm signing off.
:D
GOODBYEEEEEEEEEEE!
Audrey, :B

She email-ed me this. hahaha. super cute lah!
so i shall put it all up in green to thank her !
only we both know why! hahaha.

i love my girl !

IVAN!

FUCK ME!

2008-08-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

when i leave you envious, it means i haven't done enough to please you.
cos i know im not good enough.
so, F U C K ME !

takecare. i will never blog like before.
and even if i do, NOT ANYONE'S PROBLEM !

how about just ignoring me.
that will be better!

IVAN

MONDAY!

2008-08-24T23:54:00.000-07:00

monday, english prelims.
okay okay lah. got kick ! but i think can pass lah. but on the other hand, who just wants a PASS?
i want a good grade, not just another pass! grr.
ill work hard !

ily baby ! honey, dar dar !
:D

IVAN

my plans for the near future!

2008-08-23T20:45:00.000-07:00

study study, tuition, study, tuition and study, football. thats all i spend my time doing.
i dont like! i want is eat, sleep, go out with baby. and repeat that cycle. !!!
nevermind after o levels my life will be totally different. im not going to contact anyone other than my secondary school brothers, my baby and NONE other. [:
too many friends also takes up alot of time and more more more. therefore i made this decision.
ill concentrate on working, footballing with my new club and most importantly my honey ! (:
btw, honey, baby, hon hon, lover girl, darling all the same person okay.
ALL IS NG AUDREY KIM !
hehehe..
i wanna get over and done with these o levels stuff so so soon!
i love you hon hon (:
ill treasure you.
and cherish you.
its a eternal promise. =D
i'm all yours!

IVANNNN!

-.-

2008-08-23T01:08:00.000-07:00

-.-

IT'S NOT OVER.

2008-08-19T19:08:00.001-07:00

BABY !

Its not over. This will last long long. for an eternity. don't worry about what happens around us, our surroundings or anyone else. we don't have to bother. sometimes you might feel weird. not untrusted. not well taken care of. but things dont always go the way we want them to go. sometimes plans, wants and needs have to be altered according to whats the situation like and as well as considering the effect it has on our loved ones.
i know its hard to understand. but, when you slowly figure it out, you will know that it makes the most sense.

honhon, i love you. will always do =D
with all my heart & soul.
nothing's gonna stop me.
you know it, i know it, god knows it.
i hate times away from you.
but i know im not far away from meeting you.
i have had a wonderful past with you.
enjoying a great present with you even though o levels are being gay.
and anticipating the greates possible future together with you.
love you ! =D

IVAN!

IVAN'S MOOD FLEW AWAY.

2008-08-19T05:07:00.000-07:00

stressed up. o's are coming and im not having enough time for myself.
cant even relax for abit. one week 7 days. tuitions and extra lessons for 5 days.
monday,wednesday,thursday,friday and sunday. madness lah.
hais.

hon hon, give me this month to prepare. after this nothing will hold me back. i promise.
love ya.

even though it makes me quite sad-ed. no choice.
very stress. my face is changing, looking more disturbed
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IVAN!

2008-08-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

a public announcement.
i hate fiona ng. this is my opinion.
she WAS a good sister. she has changed.
i dont know her. i hate her. her attitude sucks.
she only know how to tell others, you changed you changed.
dont know how to watch her own dirty back.
hais, so sad to see how much a person can change.
from a nice and innocent person to a cunning wolf-like creature.
one person's mistake cannot be blamed on all.
she wont know till she is the one in our shoes.
its your own lack of trust and confidence.
dont blame it on others.
all the blame is yours.
im not talking behind you. this is a public blog.
its for all to see. im not hiding it by making my blog private.
and therefore im not backstabbing. and so what if i am?
i already hate you. for what you have become now.
a mop headed cunning girl. i wouldn't say lady.
its gonna be disgracing many.
the times we had, gone.
the times we gonna have, war !

IVAN HATES YOU !
live with it, or just stop sticking your long long long nose of a witch into other's matters.

IVAN!

EVIL BOY

2008-08-10T17:59:00.001-07:00

AUDREY !, I LOVE YOU !

HOHOHO! i am evil. =D =D =D =D =D

u know i love audrey also not?

like crazy crazy. we are going to prove to millions and millions on what is forever !

im going to treat her well, all the way till we are literally wiped off from the surface of this earth.

and i'll teach my son to be a good boyfriend also. teach my daughter to be a tolerant girlfriend.

5 years ( not counting this year) is what im waiting for.

i'll have my car, my job by then. which means there's lefy with 1 more jigsaw puzzle in my life.

MY GIRL ! =D

i'll protect her, keep her happy and provide her with a totally pleasent life.

something she deserves. surely.

i know others might think i'm not be good enough for her. but who cares,

it's me who won! and it's her opinion and decision which is most important.

loved her, loving her,will always love her.

❤Audrey (:

IVAN!

love audrey !

2008-08-10T02:08:00.001-07:00

Love love love love her like mad !
promise to takecare of her all my life.
never let go.
never to cheat or forsake her.
holding her hands always.
walking with her through thick and thin.
regardless ofhow strongly the wind blows or how heavily the rain falls.
(:
=D
(x
<3

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HER ! (;

IVAN

[; the only thing that makes me smile real wide !

2008-08-09T03:04:00.000-07:00

my love for her will never die.
[:
always will be my baby.

IVAN!

no need come read already !

2008-08-08T20:37:00.000-07:00

no need come read my blog already.
im not going to be using it in a long long long long long super long time.
only will reply tags.
tc.

IVAN!

2008-08-06T08:13:00.001-07:00

happy 1st anniversary baby
(; many more to go.

will post the celebration tmr okay ! now need to go study !

anyway here's 3 birthday wishes to my beloved hiadi kia(s)
happy birthday!~
6th august, ian tang.
7th august, johann
8th august, sumii

enjoy peeps (:

IVAN !

!

2008-08-03T07:06:00.000-07:00

i wont reveal the previous post in the coming days.
it means nothing though. just in symbols form

IVAN !

i cant!

2008-08-03T07:04:00.000-07:00

i just feel so fucked up ! argh !
damn it.
pull the trigger & shoot ME !
or break my head !

IVAN !

(((((;

2008-08-03T04:43:00.001-07:00

Ivan stays happy due to the side effects of the magical thursday and friday he had (;
and i was in the bus, i saw honey again! super lucky, super super lucky ! (;
tomorrow finally can meet &&&&& our 1st anniversary is coming soonnnnn!!!! (;
hope we stay this happy always. 1 month passed so quickly. hope the years go by quickly too.
skip us 5 years ahead (; only i know why. hahahhaa.
love you honey.

and and and. im going to start studying so so hard. super hard. try my best. after that if i dont do well, i wont blame myself. but i believe if i really study hard, i'll do well. isn't it why they call it study hard! or hard study* lol. (;

takecare peeps.
i love you baby =D

IVAN!

ANOTHER HAPPY DAY! SAME HAPPY BOY !

2008-08-01T21:08:00.001-07:00

HERE WE SEE THE SAME HAPPY IVAN (;
REASON: AUDREY KIM NG =D
DATE: 1ST AUGUST 2008

I try as detailed as possible okay !
once again, just in case im affected with Short Term Memory !

Once upon a time, there lived a boy named Ivan. He did not go to school on August the 1st as he was suspended for being naughty! hahahaha ! song bo?! haha okay. enough enough. did not go school but was at front gate after school as had some talking to do. after that i went walking walking with martin and melvin. went to martin's place for just awhile.

honey was angry, hahahaha. cos she was locked out with no house keys. sad-ed. awhile more her maid arrived and she changed and we met at the weird bus stop. why weird?
cos we saw a man reading newspapers at 11.30pm+ over there. madness.

met and decided to continue the path we wanted to walk together. was super hot. and at the end of the path, staircases. long ones ! we walked down and decided to enter lower pierce.
before that bought drinks and pringles. i hope its the right spelling !

walked in. all the way in and then got road block.
there was this quite big salamander there. damn scary. it's like copper coloured. shiny.
then we decided to pour water on him. first baby poured lychee drnk on it. it seemed to like the lychee. keep on tasting it (stupid salamander). so i poured lemon barley. he started to move. and we ran past. but still scare her ! hahahahahaha!

after that we decided just to sit on the bridge, or wooden walkway. was very hot hot hot there.
and honey did shocking thing. confidential. hahahah !
then we walked abit more in and took a set. many noises. we came out sit and the boat ranger passed us. super irritating. then lucky i ask you stand up ah ! correct not honey?!
or you sure sad girl.

then we see snake leh! really snake. i thought tortiose!
snake! super interesting. i want to see him come out but he keep swimming. but the body so long. i try to call him. i make the SSSSSSSSSSSSS that sound. he very ignorant. he dont want to come. so i say nevermind lah. i spend time with honey better. but i like the snake. he quite cute.
(;

we spent the time sitting around and talking. i also dont know talk what lah. haha. so after some time we decided to walk out. so we walked out and i saw this very nice path nicely ringed up with plants and vines. and we got this aunty to take a pic for us. okay 2 pictures. so we took them and the aunt asked us if we were still studying? or if we were in JC. honey said POLY ! and the aunty believed ! OMG. she so cute. the aunty super cute i tell you. she handle the camera like those olden days cameras which you put your eyes to the lens. hahaha. and she asked me to ''hard study'' which i believe was study hard. hahahaha.

so we left and walked towards bishan park. decided to sit there so that i can send over the so many pics we took together. end up we sat there and talk alot also. till it turned dark. there we talked about past experiences, relationships. hope we learn from other's mistakes and never follow under those footsteps. or this will end up as a failure as well. we never want that don't we?
walked honey back home. and then made my way home.

after that not important already lah. it's only meaningful when im with her (;
hahha, baby ! I LOVE YOU !
i will treasure you & give you the best moments of your life~
*promises !*

IVAN! =D

nice place! where we saw the cute aunty!
AND, the aunty came closer. she said she liked big photos..
AIG! - Audrey Ivan's Girlfriend.
SO CUTE ! small girl. hahaha.
I asked her how to punch, she tought me. fighter!

Shiny dog-like eyes. ahahahha. like possesed !
For once you looked like you were almost my height ! hahahaha
(;
us, together. forever =D

the best scenery we could snap?

she's my baby. i'll protect her ! (;
keep her safe & sound.
(pause) this pic ah. out of point!
(continue)make sure she always smiles.

(pause) if that fingering looked like gloria's then i will chop it off !

(still paused) im giving hooligan face !
(continue) and love her like nobody did ! (;
&&& make her feel as if everyday was paradise!
trying my best to do it (: i will! promiseeee!

IVAN & AUDREY ! (;

YOU HAVE GOT ME (;

2008-07-31T19:04:00.000-07:00

HERE WE SEE A VERY VERY HAPPY IVAN!
REASON: AUDREY KIM NG (;
HAPPY DAY!,NIGHT
can't forget this day ! i mean night. super good! gotta post it in very detailed manner.
in case short term memory gives me its best shot.

31st july !
(:
met baby at yck mrt after she returned from the concert. saw that the queue for the bus 76 was very long. so we sat there and waited for the next bus. just an hour ago my mom found out i have a gf (; power!
boarded the bus with this really wonderfully dressed lady, okay girlfriend. =D
then stopped at the bus stop near her house.
walked down the stairs (detailed remember!)
and came across those many malay ppl. they take knife wan, careful !
then walked past a carpark and then to our usual hangout place ~
the chairs. haha. then have fun taking alot of photos & talk alot of stuff.
decided to go to the sunset place. waked up there and sat and do nonsense again.
it was super windy, super quiet, super peaceful. like only the both of us existed in the world.
finally realised we were not the only ones there when we saw a cat ! zzz!
came across this wild couple on a bike. shouting away and made some funny u-turn.
honey was super sweet !
and and and, she promised to propose ! hahahaha. silly girl !
we spent so much time together we never took note of the time.
nobody called her. nobody called me. okay maybe only my friend did.
i meant no parental stress. hahaha.
saw that it was already 11.30pm. so decided to SLOWLY walk to her place. we took the super long way.
half way through we saw that super long road. super nice. it looked abit like a valley.
we decided to walk through it. but just when we started honey, was afraid !
hahahaha! scary cat ! so we slowly walked home.
i was super duper pleased ! (: & :)
walked her to her lift and went home.
i know i sure cannot sleep already !
hehehe !
oh ya, honey (not the sweet sweet liquid) looked real good on that night.
super good. let you see the photo okay.
if nothing nice to say then go away.
i treasure my gf (;
i will continue to cherish her !
and promise to love her always & forever!
she said i was different. but actually it was her. she's silly.
i loveher ! (:

let the pictures speak for itself. remember ah, nothing nice to say? press (alt+f4) or
(alt+left).
takecare peeps.
im happy. so if you wanna see me full of grief, too bad !
im super duper happy ! (;

my cutest girl (;

she made me laugh before she snapped, that explains my weird face.

The flash was too bright, that explains another weird face.

thats our personal moon. just for ourselves (;

trying her best to behave like a lady! failed !

after several tries, i decided to close my eyes. the flash -.-

same couple, different moon.

awwww, so nice (;

i think im so so so in love with this pig.

though she's still childish!

it shows she's cute (; and i like it.

and promise to takecare of her always

protect her, and make sure i'm always by her side (;

and also to assure she never wipes that pretty smile off her face ((;

BECAUSE, I LOVE HER !

I SWEAR I DO, NO MATTER WHAT!

I'M NOT REGRETTING ! IM ENJOYING!

THANKING GOD FOR PRESENTING ME WITH THIS TREASURE

ONLY I KNOW HOW LUCKY I FEEL ! (;
I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOUR SIDE, OR HIDE BABY!

i promise i wont ever leave you ! (;

IVAN & AUDREY ! (;

SINGAPORE VS BRAZIL (late post)

2008-07-29T18:24:00.000-07:00

Went for singapore vs brazil's olympic team 2 days back. it was kinda cool. i was sitting around the midfield and so i could shout whatever i want with no bad reception (;

sadly, im suffering from a bad throat and so i cant just scream away ! met alvin and sumii and took our seats at first. justin goutham and his cousin joined us abit later on.

watched brazil national team walk in and do their warm ups. super cool. their passing is like god-like !

the field was nice, the sky was nice. the weather? not too bad lah. ill just upload the photos and let it speak for itself. tired =x

the sky super nice ! how i wish honey was there with me X(

(;

2008-07-26T19:57:00.000-07:00

its a new day, but i still love the same girl (;
i love audrey ! (;

finally sunday is here. which means i can meet hon tomorrow (; after a million years spent on a stupid weekend in which i re-occured my foolish knee injury ! );
must be careful already. ypl finals coming soon! must play well. my form currently sucks big time. turn also cannot turn properly! ); i still have to study hard also. or have to go army ! sad-ed.
well, once again i love you honey !
glad to be with you. like i'm in heaven (;
don't worry (:::::

IVAN !

2008-07-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

IVAN ♥ AUDREY KIM NG !

IVAN (;

SADDED

2008-07-25T17:58:00.000-07:00

H A I S !
i hate to wake up this way. knowing that last night did not go the way you wanted it to.
it ended up in disaster for me. i, myself don't know why. so i've got no comments.
im damn hell sick and i gotta still go for my soccer match. its a league game so i can't miss it.
im upset. really upset.
i really wish this dont happen again.
cos im breaking down. its starting to happen way too often.
i fear i can't control myself !
sorry.
hais
tc..
bb.

IVAN );

2008-07-24T07:27:00.000-07:00

straightforward post!

i hate this girl called g..... simply cos she sucks!
fucking hell think she chio bu !
the face like one living dead vampire !
scary like F !
@_@

not happy ask your bf come !
busted guys like funfair.
people treat you so good, you mother cheebye knn nabei !
hope u die soon.
then i bring disco ball go your funeral !
lets party !
wooohooo!

F-OFF BITCH !
g, its not you im blogging. it just happened that this bitch is also named g.
and i kinda think its YOU !

IVAN!

a girl like you is impossible to find.

2008-07-24T05:33:00.001-07:00

went school, as usual school sucked. after school went central with hon. then we walked to library there sit talk talk and write some stuff. decided to go mac and sit/eat. today you won. nvm. i will win the next. baby ily. (; stuck in the rain! GOOD AH ! (; hahaha.
got to stay longer. and 7pm, walked her home. ily honey. there's more to today. its ours to keep. our memories (;

ily ily ily.
the girl that's impossible to find ! (;

IVAN!

2008-07-22T21:47:00.001-07:00

BABY I LOVE YOU ! (;
i really do. ((((:
i also don't know why im blogging about this now.
just felt like doing so.
so now you know i'd do anything. (:
LOVE YA !

IVAN !

SEMI FINALS!

2008-07-22T16:55:00.000-07:00

semi finals were a shocker as independent society crashed out of the tournament. weird.
its more weird because they crashed out to unknown warriors. they won them 4-0 just a week ago ! o.O
damn scared ! then played against vanquizers. first half 0-0.
twisted my left knee early on. F-ing pain. really really damn pain.
played as hard as could.
no use... -.-
till they say ref say last minute. and 30 seconds later got handball!
took the penalty and scored !
HENG AR! won 1-0.
we are going to the finals ! AGAIN...
play hard spartans. (:

my knee is in a fed up situation. so did not play around after match.
fetched baby home and broke record !
8.08pm !
haha.

morning. woke up and realised that going to school today is impossible. seriously.
so fetched baby to school and went home. and now painfully blogging.
my knee is giving me a hard hard time..

i will get well soon ! (;

IVAN!

WARNING!

2008-07-21T19:57:00.000-07:00

this is to those fckers,bastards,cb kias, news reporter ( wanna be ) , posers, copycats and irritants.
dont poke your FUCKING nose into other's problems. not your problem you huan lo so much for what? your mother teach you wan is it?
or is it your mother never teach you then you like this?
people treat you with respect, give you face.
this is what i get in return?
FUCK YOU !
i tell you, anymore nonsense from you, ill just go kill your loved one.
kill you no fun. cos must see you suffer.
just like you are making me suffer when you irritate my loved one.
you know who you are. i think...
most probably you can guess.
if you are smart enough.
if YOU think the person is YOU.
then come declare war with me.
come come come.
i not scared. bring your lao peh, lao bu, ah ma , ah kong all come.
i not scared. got bf/gf call them come also.
i will kill all of you.
i show you the meaning of
v.i.o.l.e.n.t.d.o.m.i.n.a.n.c.e
i am ruthless when you want me to me. you made me.
this is what you asked for.
you will see it in the coming future.
i feel sad for you.
cos what you are going to face, is
FUCKING HELL !
so beware. KID!

last warning. take it and then leave. or just leave it. up to you.
but dont regret your choice.
you know ivan never loses.
im born with it.
TOO BAD !

oh ya, don't offend my girlfriend.
not happy? take a knife and stab it to my chest.
dont have to beat around the bush.
loser!

IVAN, you will always win.
LOSERS, your name speaks for itself.

IVAN!

(;

2008-07-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

determined to do well. study hard and have a good future. (;
whatever i do ill think of you. and i make sure i try to cut down on all the nonsense things im doing.
currently a very happy boy, cos of you.
you stay happy too. (;
ily ily ily (;
forever !

takecare peeps. lazy to blog. BUT BUT BUT !
come support my team (spartans) playing at the ypl semi-finals yea.
tuesday at 5pm. playing against vanquizers united fc.
we let you all see many goals lah okay!
(;

(;

2008-07-17T06:48:00.000-07:00

morning woke up meet honeyyyyyyy! then walked to school and went for the camp.
found the GOR-PA so irritatign today! nvm. camp was fun, nice , entertaining.
hmm, nothing much to say.

wait wait.. GOT GOT !

I LOVE AUDREY KIM NG ! (;
MY GIRLFRIEND !
(;

IVANNNNN!

NICE!

2008-07-15T10:02:00.000-07:00

today=15.07.08=good day.

was not cupposed to attend school. but had to see someone, and therefore.. here you go.
achool was irritating as usual and the bloody gun as usual.
die on the way to the hospital won't you?!

after school was the best (;
met small girl(hon) and walked to popular.
got stationery and papers.
for what, only we know! haha.
went to mos burger to eat.
PLAIN DOG !
thay call it plain, but it comes with a bun, mustard and tomato ketchup!
weird !
after that walked back to the block beside school and write write write.
bu never write finish.
went for o level mtl listening. so lame.
hon waited at the shine arts center.
sorry for keeping you waiting );
i owe you one! ((((((;

wrote till the uncle say, we can lock you inside the school !
probably the last students to leave the school.
and went to 643 yo complete the writing.
you silly girl, dont even which block you went to.
really happy. (;
love love love love ya! ((((((((((;

next 5 days cant meet ! );
have this strong urge to skip it on friday and meet you after school !
if can ill do it ! YEA !

went to watch wanted with the brothers in the evening.
not too bad. i like the beating part, as usual!
okay im sleepy and pig has slept!
fall asleep again ! but still, ilyyyyyyyyyyy & forever ! (;

takecare peeps. nights. i mean morning.
im going to sleep
hopefully.

i dedicate this purple font to you, and our happiness.
you happy, i happy remember? (;

I LOVE MY BABY GIRL (:

Audrey's Ivan (;

2008-07-13T00:48:00.000-07:00

fri, later part of the day was like heaven! ((((:

sat, met martin and yong. work. tiring o.O
all the rims so dirty. and went to eat, and go home.

lalalalalal ! very lazy to blog. but my life is a joy indeed. with someone in it. (;
stopping here. super duper lazy. i rather go do push ups then type type type -.-
tc peeps (:

IVANNNNNNNNNNNNN!

2008-07-10T23:44:00.000-07:00

ايفان يحب اودري
ايفان يحب اودري
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go find out the meaning ! (;
((((;

today is sick.

2008-07-10T22:38:00.000-07:00

today is sickening & it sucks..
just when i was hoping for a better day..
i got a worse one. wow, thanks !
morning was a disaster, and the time at school wasway worse.
not feeling very well. sleeping most of the time. and when the ball rang i walked around the place like a zombie. i know it sucks. can i help it?
i never had the energy. i never got it today.
once again, only i know what im talking about.
why must this happen? is it very painful for you people to see us together?
struggling away. slipping away. falling down.
if you people were understandng enough, you will think of you'r friend's happiness.
i mean this i general. dont take it as if im directing this to you.
but seriously..
okay, no point. kids have a long way to. please change soon. because you are giving me a tough tough time.
hanging on a thread.

the struggles will leave soon. i hope..

IVAAAAAAAN!